Stop. He move on...
Im still trying to make myself feel better about being someone else spare tyre.
The feeling of being used is really not nice.
Somewhat felt betrayed?
I don know, its like all this are fake.
And it seems like nothing have happen between us.
More to like saying im wishful thinking.
How sad?
When you like someone and its gone to waste.
Anyway...today was our company Movie Night.
So...we are watching Ghost Rider.
And 2 person came in to ask me whether i needed a ride to amk hub despite sending email out,
and like asking me 2 times.
Its like im important, people know my existent!!
Felt super happy inside, but i didnt really show out.
nah~ i not that kind of person to show it out.
Its like kinda sweet and i wish my bf was like this.
Sometimes i cant help thinking will i ever get my Mr Right?
Will i be forever alone?
Will i ever be sucess in life?
Will I....?
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4:19 PM
He is in LOVE!
So i decided to see his FB, and i found out he was back with his gf.
Hmmm...it was sad, definitely. but i was somehow not that shock or surprise.
From the scale from 1 to 10 (Saddest), i can say im like only 3?
But at the same time i feel happy for him somehow
Maybe because i saw the variety show that was talk about horoscope
and realise guys that are cancer are those very flirty and feel that they are into you
but actually is not, they already have a queen.
So i guess, that is why i slowly feeling numb.
Cant help but wonder, when will i ever get into a relationship or not?
Feel like going back to studies, but im really afraid that after i studied im might not like it.
I really don know
I scare that i might regret
But i will never know unless i tried.
and i also scare that my classmates are those rich man brat.
Something they can we so proud insensitive and spoiled
Not to even say talented too...
I just scare of every possibility!!!
Remembered the fortune teller told me that if i'll never learn to let go of the fear in me
i will never succeed in my life
how true? tell me please?
♥ Welcome to my silly life!! ♥
4:30 PM
I really don know what to say
People always say life is suppose to be full of ups and downs.
But for my life, why do it always seems to be like always down and no up?
Before CNY my father met an car accident -> no income for 8 freaking days ( ard $1000)
followup by my mum fell down and injured herself and spoiled her spectacles. ( $800)
and now i got heart cramps - $100
Last but not least on valentine day my dad lost his whole wallet and hp - $1000
And now at this very time we needed so much money to pay off debts and sch fees
why God tell me why, why do you always do this to us?
i should not do this but my faith is really losing...
And i really Bless those dishonest people that took my dad's hp and money.
they are really dishonest.
Sometime i just felt really unfair.
whenever my dad found wallet or hp that passenger left in his car,
he will automatic contact his passenger and return to them.
But why?
Why do such things never ever happen to us?
don they always say 好人有好报 (means good people will have good paybacks)?
God, can you please show us some miracle, if it really exist?
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10:32 AM
I wish I could vanish or float away
Sometime I just wish that I could disappear or float away into somewhere that I belong.
I felt like I'm always so connivence that my parents will overlooked my needs.
I felt heart cramps and they don even bother.
When I'm sick they don even have the initiative to buy sweet for me
They didn't really heard the full story yet blame everything to me.
And one thing that hurt me most is that the things are said they don listen and only after other people told them then they believe me.
It's not like I'm jealous or I'm an over sensitive freak.
It's happens many times
I don feel like saying anymore.
Felt like crying yet I got nowhere to cry.
Seems like they is no where I truly belong and rest my soul.
Wonder if there is any real readers that are reading my blog.
Seems like no one ever give a shit about me.
I'm just a nobody
So what if I sleep tonight and never wakes up.
No one will care or even shed a tear, I bet my friends don even remember that they had me this friend.
I wish I could vanish and see who really will look for me..... But I guess it will only hurt me more
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8:13 PM
Please visit my shop! :)
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2:13 PM