I bet many people are aware of what they want in their life.
and many people have been asking me this question.
Especially when i was in poly.
What do i want in life?
everyday single day, i been asking myself this too.
What i want?
I really have no idea.
Sometimes i see no reason im living for.
All i felt is that i have been clearing people shit and debts
Cant have a room for myself
cant further study
cant do this cant do that
But there is one thing i want most is
Money, for goodness sake who don love them. i can say is hate/love them. because without them my whole family might have been in jail or maybe sleeping in one of the drains.
But love them because i can buy things and go overseas.
but i should say spend them wisely.
Still i cant believe someone spend $2500 on phone bills and decide not to pay for it and throw all this shit to us.
Didnt we told her we are facing bankruptcy?
Now great, we gotta own more people money to pay this debt off.
God, why do i have this type of sisters?
One is like princess and another is so inmature?
I also wanna be princess, i also don wanna pay bills and everyday shake leg at home.
but i rather don want.
So meaningless. its worst having no goals or wanting something in life.
I wanna do something that make me feel good, being princess and bossing people around itz.
Throwing your debts and playing your ass wont make you feel good too.
Actually, i wanted to go into design industry.
but im really sacred!
im scared im not good enough ya know?
Im sacred that after i study interior design, i discovered that im not that interested?
Oh man, that will be very bad.
i will have spend all those money for nothing, maybe not nothing but for a Degree cert maybe!
I wanna lead a comfortable life with my parents and be married to a guy, but i doubt that will happen.
Secondly i want is good health and safety.
They make seems like nothing but its truly important !!
Life is very fragile, we may not know what will happen, there is no guarantee to everything.
Just feeling sad yet unable to tell anyone about it.
♥ Welcome to my silly life!! ♥
4:13 PM