Been on Stress mode for a couples a days.
Especially after the cervical cancer talk and final destination 5.
Going to made payment next week anyway. but kenna scared!
Had a big quarrel with my elder sis.
I don expect people to understand what i am going through nor me but i just don feel that you got the right to judge.
I guess most of my friends that are close to me know that i kenna family-orientated person.
I really plan very hard to everyone to gather for bonding for my father's birthday next month.
I don even mind paying for half of the expenses just to have bonding, and we never really one family all 5 person going for holiday or outing before in my whole 22 years of life.
And i just feel that she always like to threaten us for not going chalet. since i was on stress mode yesterday and i see no reason to please her or coax her to go AGAIN ( this is the second time she use this to threaten me).
If you don wanna go, just say it. don take us all out as a excuses to make like its all our faults.
Actually i don feel like saying this, but anyway no one reads my blog anyway.
so here it is.
Everyone have been trying so hard to organised gathering and she is always rejecting us.
giving us all sort if ridiculous excuses if not BF or JB. Then come back scolding us and accusing us of not treating her as family??!!
Hello, please la!
We don say anything because we are sick of this drama already.
I won go into details, but is she have conscience she should know herself. (and we know that she is the one that didnt treat us family) Even though i still love her, (come on she is my sister, how to hate them you tell me?) Blood is always thicker than water explains it all!
Anyway she don wanna talk to me or whatever so be it then.
I am also tired of trying and always pleasing her.
Sometimes people have mood swing right, don tell me you don have.
And cant i have some of my own privacy? not all of the things i wanna share, and yesterday when you came in i was really about to sleep.
And you have no idea how bad is my cramps is, of course you can say as loud as you can.
I fainted multiples times, that is how bad my cramps is, and worst my blood pressure is always very low. i have to eat very strong pain killers just to get through that terrible 3-4 days.
So i can understand people telling me how it is possible that you can cramps till you faint?
BUT THIS IS THE FACT!!!! i didnt lie ok, my mum also at first didnt believe me until that day she saw me cramp until she speechless and felt so helpless. and i even went to emergency.
But so what, the doctor just give you pain killer. there is nothing the doctor can do anyway.
and i really hate people come running to me and roll eyes at me telling me that they hate this hate that den in the end slap yourself by doing it?!
Come on!
Tsk! Drama~!
Sigh sorry for the rant, but feel better now.
♥ Welcome to my silly life!! ♥
4:10 PM