I am feeling very emotional now.
After reading those things,
i realize that sometime we don always get what we wan.
Does not mean that getting it earlier than someone mean you will have it forever.
There are always problems.
There are everywhere and continuous.
After you solve one, there will be another.
Here i am telling them to face the problem
blah blah blah
But when it happens on ourselves
we are like all the same.
Have we ever thought of this before?
We were all once to be happy and cheerful?
but as we all grow older
things change.
no matter character, feeling, taste and even relationship.
Thought we all may not be that close anymore
i do wish that any problem we all can talk out.
knowing that we all have the same common problem
sometimes people ask me,
tell me more about yourself.
i was like being hit by a truck.
i was dumb-folded.
i feel so silly sitting down there and not answering it.
I don even know what kind of person,
i don know what i like,
i don know what i wan in life,
i don know what im passion about,
so many so many.
Always thinking all i want was leading simple life,
i wanna work and work get alot of money and spent it with my family.
and thats it.
get old and die.
but...
now thinking about it now,
i haven experience enough, seeing the world enough,
learning enough?
lets not even say about dying with regrets.
Anyway i really don know what i want.
and i really need to get out of the house
i think its the reason it makes me feel emotional plus having internet!!
No matter what everyone always need someone to lean on.
you may say no but deep down in your heart you really want it badly.
♥ Welcome to my silly life!! ♥
10:10 PM
I am outta of job for two whole week and this is the third week.
All my saving are almost running low.
and hate to say i took pocket money from my dad.
I felt ashamed.
This 2week at home i realised one big problem.
I don know what i like nor passion about.
At first i thought i could be graphic designer
and give it a try.
but sometimes things are not what we see on its surface.
or maybe its the company or me.
I don know or its just me being over sensitive.
Whatever.
So what am i going to do??
No design, No accounts, No admin, No sales...etc
imagining my future, changing jobs every year??
I really scared.
i don even dare to talk to anybody about it.
I feel so uncomfortable.
People always telling me money money money.
and im sick of it.
Dear God, Have you heard my prayers not?
Bless me with one nice jobs.
So i can see that in the world, there is nothing people won stress about,
hahaha
got study, Stress
no study, Stress
Work, Stress
no work, Stress
no money, even stress
we are all in the stressful Earth.
But its how we handle stress.
i believe people don get stress like me
ahahhahaha.
Hope to get that job, though i know i don really like it.
I really want an tourism job!!!
and i should really consider to think about studying,
coz i know my cert will bring me to no where
I miss Sakae Sushi, Soup Spoon, FEP wantoon mee and haji lane.
Aw....i lead a boring life....
LASTLY.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SZES!!!!
WELCOME TO THE TWENTIES....ahahahahha
♥ Welcome to my silly life!! ♥
1:08 AM
Useless......
Somebody to lean on.
After all this years, why?
why.....
♥ Welcome to my silly life!! ♥
11:56 PM